Valentino

Valentine's day, Hearts day o araw ng mga puso kahit anung tawag dyan iisang araw lang yan. Feb 14... Anu ba talaga ang araw na ito sa mga tao? Kailangan ba talagang ipagdiwang ito o sadyang pamparami lang ng paalala sa kalendaryo? Ayun sa wikipedia --- It is traditionally a day on which lovers express their love for each other by presenting flowers, offering confectionery, and sending greeting cards (known as "valentines"). Yun naman pala, isang kaugalian na kung saan pagpapakita ng pagmamahal sa isang tao, in short gastos para sa mga lalaki(LOL). Pero sa paglipas ng panahon nabigyan ng ibang kahulugan ang araw na ito, hindi lang ito umiikot sa mga nagmamahalan. Pede mo rin naman kasing bigyan ng tsokolayt at bulaklak ang mga taong di mo mahal sa panahon na ito katulad ng mga sumusunod:

• Kapamilya mo - sa ina, kapatid na babae, sa lola, sa tita, sister-in-law, mother-in-law.
• Sa kaibigan - ung kaibigan lang talaga ang turing mo ha,sa umpisa. kasi nanliligaw pa eh.
• Sa teacher/professor - uso yan nung college at high school ako, para magpalakas sa kanila, tsktsk.
• at marami pang iba. hehe,wala na kasi akong maisip.

Panahon ng paggunita sa mga taong nagmahal, nagmamahal at magmamahal satin. Single man o may asawa, it's complicated o kaya in relationship, dating or searching. Lagi nating tatandaan maski sa lovelyf ay weather - weather lang(Matang-Lawin,LOL).

Espesyal na araw sa mga magkasintahan, malungkot naman para sa mga iniwanan. Kaliwa't kanang palabas na ang tema ay pagmamahalan. Saan kaya sila dadalhin ng pagiibigan?..

Isang araw na naman ang nagdaan, dadaan at magdadaan, walang magbabago puso ko lalo lang nasasaktan. Pagibig na kay tagal tagal ng hinahangad bakit hangang ngayong sadyang mailap. Di ko naman sinisisi ang mundo kung bakit ako nagkaganito, sadyang malupit lang talaga siguro kapag ang tadhana sayo'y nagbiro.

Bago matapos ang entry ko na ito, may isang tula akong nagawa ng kadahilanan ng malungkot kung tadhana. Sana maibigan nyo ang obra ko...

Di mo man ako mahal aking kaibigan, andito lang ako walang sawang nagmamahal at magmamahal sayo. Bow..

Again, Maligayang Araw ng mga Puso. Sana lahat tayo ay masaya.

Spread the love to the world. ^_^

Spell L.O.V.E

14days before Valentine ’s Day, 2weeks before heart day. Meron ka na bang ka-date? Handa naba ang susuotin mo sa araw na un? Buti ka pa may date ka, kasi ako wala eh. I wil celebrate that day once again with my dearest family.

Mapupuno na naman ang luneta, magkakaubusan na naman ng mga upuan sa mga restaurant na mahilig puntahan ng mga magsisin-erog. Uso na naman ang mga nakakaantig puso na mga story sa T.V. at big screen. Marami na naman ang magsusuot ng pulang damit. Mabenta na naman ang mga bulaklak sa tindahan… Rose for those in the middle class, Tulips for those in the upper class at Sampaguita sa mga gipit at walang perang pambili ng mamahaling bulaklak. Above average na naman ang gross receipts ng mga bahay na walang kusina, specially sa Sta. Mesa.

People connect by love, reunite by love, bond by love. Love is so mysterious, even in field of medicine they can’t give a clear meaning of LOVE. Maraming uri ng love; Unconditional love- given by our parents and family, God’s love from our creator and father—PAPA Jesus, and the most complicated among them all is the romantic/intimate love. Love that can change a people, can make people so miserable. There are so many meaning of love that we applied in our daily life. Love can completes us and even destroyed us. To be honest, masarap naman talaga umibig. D ito mapaliwanag ang saya kapag ika’y nagmamahal, un ay kung mahal ka rin ng mahal mo. Sa movie lang naman talaga nagkakaroon ng happy ending in terms ng love story, sometimes even you love each other kailangan nyo pa rin maghiwalay. Saludo ako sa mga taong magmamahal ng walang inihintay na kapalit. Alam kung isang pagiging martyr un, kung baga one way love lang xa, ung tibong lahat ng bagay gagawin mo para sa mahal mo upang mapasaya xa kahit na walang kapalit. I hope n sana ang pag-ibig ay parang pagbabayad ng buo, na pedeng suklian kahit barya barya lang. Mahirap kapag friends kayo before din naging maglovers kayo o kaya nafall ung other party, nagsusuffer ung friendship and sometimes it end up enimies. Sometimes it started in bestfriends then end up lovers. D naman talaga maiiwasan mainlab sa isang kaibigan, lagi kayong magkasama, kilala nyo na ang gusto at ayaw ng isa’t isa. May narinig akong ang perfect friends cannot be a perfect lovers. Kaya cguro mas gugustuhin mo nalang na magkaibigan kayo kaysa sa mawala sya sa tabi mo.

Ang ilan naman ay naniniwala sa destiny, but im not one of them. You must search your happiness or else you can’t find it. Pero meron din naman na nakukuha nila ang gusto nila na wala silang ginagawa at d nag eexert ng effort, maybe this just so lucky. Life is too short for us to full around, to wait for those who/what we want. We must start right away for us to be happy, ika nga ng isa kung kaibigan – “find your happiness, and happiness will find you”.

Now is the end of the month, but tomorrow is the beginning of other month. It shows that all must end to start a new.

Love month na tomorrow, buwan ng mga nagmamahalan, mahalin mo ang mga taong nagmamahal at nagaalaga sayo. I hope I can find the one that will love me for who I am, that will shout to the world that she loves me.

Pray to God, and he will lead to the road that we need. Godbless us all.

Ciao.

I'm Falling to Pieces

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I wrote this blog because of all the pain I felt these past few weeks, months and even a year.

First my heart today is unstable. It’s still broken because of one girl that I loved 4months ago. We started at friends in one social networking site (Facebook), but she is my former schoolmate way back in high school. Unfortunately we didn’t cross our path. She is consisted section 1 pupil, but I know her name (she told me also that she know me then). Lagi kaming nagcocomment sa mga issue sa mga wall sa FB. Nagppm sa chat, at ng minsang magkaroon ng pagkakataon nagkausap kami sa ym. I first I feel something’s’ special to her. I want to know her better, also everyday I talk to her in ym. We talk a lot of things, we talk about her x that she loved so much but iniwan xa. At that time I realize that she needs a guy that will help him to forget the pain. Then one day one of my friends told me to get her number, aun that day binigay nya naman number nya. And that day is the start na nagkatxt kmi. Not just simple txt – ung txt na prang mag gf-bf… halos 24hrs kami magkatxt. Sabay sa lahat ng bagay, kumain, matulog, gumising at even . (nkakakilig noh?). but not all the time sweet xa.Jmaligo sabay kami Ng lumipas ang panahon I realize na nafafall na aq sa kanya, d naman kcng mahirap mahalin xa, beauty and brain xa. One day I told to her about my feelings, isa lang reply nya. D pa daw xa handa na magmahal ulet, aun xempre fail aq. Sa kanya q lang kc naramdaman ung special pala aq, sya lang nagparamdam na my halaga ang buhay q. To be honest, d pa aq ngkagirl friend. Cguro dahil wla aqng looks, guts, fame, appeal at pera(don’t get me wrong, base on my opinion). I want somebody that will care for me that will love me unconditionally, and un ung nakita q sa kanya nung una. But d pla, sadyang aq lang pla ang nangangarap, kaibigan lang talga ang tingin nya sakin. And lately nalaman q na d lang pla skin ganun treatment nya. D lang fail, super failed pa. broken hearted na naman, huhuhu. After that I planned to stay away, umiwas(bitter noh). But d q rin natiis, nagparamdam din aq. Kahit na masakit, kahit n alam kung d nya aq mamahalin, hinarap q nalang ang kato2hanan. Im still hoping na mamahalin nya din aq someday. But im not expecting(ang gulo noh?).. Basta I loved her very much. She is so precious to me since I met her.

Marami na talagang nagbago sakin since nakilala q xa. one of my friends told me pa nga na “hindi na ikaw ung kilala naming Choi”. Natawa at nalungkot aq dun, pero tama naman xa. before kc d naman aq ganito kaweak. Easy go lucky guy lang aq, laging tinatawan ang problema, d cneseryoso ang buhay, wlang negatibong naiisip, puro lang pagsasaya. Pero ngaun, halos lahat ng problemang danadaan q, prang d q na kinakaya. Mag-aaya ng inuman, dota – uu nga Masaya aq. Pero kinabukasan nandun pa din ung sakit. Thankful din aq sa mga kaibigan q na laging nandyan(kahit na minsan absent o kya late, aus lang). Thankz dotadiks… sana d kau magsawa sa pagka-EMO q.

Second is my career, 2yrs na aqng grad but till now unemployed pa din aq. Lagi q 2loy naalala ung failure q sa CPA board exam. My parents always told me na “magtrabaho ka na nga,lagi kang nsa bahay”. I tried to look for a job but everytime I attend a job interview they always as me na “may working experience kna ba?”. Aun lagi denied application q, since then tinatamad na 2loy aqng pumunta sa mga job interviews. Alibi q lang sa mga kakilala q na tinatamad aq pumunta sa mga interview but in fact talagang ayaw q kc alam qng d aq matatanggap. Isa pa kc sayang ung pera at oras na gugu2lin q, I tried almost 15times sa pagaapply, till now wlang reply. Now I don’t know where to start again. I losing hope na magiging masaya pa aq. I end up losing, crying, being alone one time pa nga naisip kung mgpakamatay nalang. Pero una kung naisip na mas maraming malulungkot kapag ginwa q un. I don’t want to be selfish. Masaya namang mabuhay, d lang maiiwasang magkaroon ng mga problema na susubok sa iyong pagkatao. . Cguro kulang talga aq sa faith ky GOD at effort to achieve all my goals.

Hangang dito nalang baka kc makarating pa `to sa MMK, mafeatured pa aq. Godbless Us all.

Ciao.

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

1-2-3-4

One of my favorite song:

1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You’re the best that I’ve had
And I’m so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There’s only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words
That’s what I’ll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

"It's All About U"

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This post is about my first experience of true love. To love a friend is not that easy. It takes a lot of guts to tell her what is your feelings. You must considered all things that may affect your relationship to each other specially when you treasured your friendship. And in my case, I'm the one who fell in love to my friend. I admit that is not my intention to fell inlove with her, but I think that the nature of true love. It comes when your not expecting it. Actually, she is not the girl that i dreamed of(hehe, totoo un), but when the time goes by,lalo kong nakikita ung good side nya na nagpatibok ng puso q(ang corny talaga kapag umiibig).

Nagsimula ang lahat nung... she is my former classmate when i was studying in one of the elite school in our country( elite because maraming kakaiba sa skul na ito,jowk.. hehe basta magandang skul). At first, hindi kami ganun kaclose kc akala q masungit xa(pero totoo naman,dinidenie nya lang,peace!!!). But GOD is to good, one day lang aun nagkakilala kami in the way of a common friend na klasmyt din namin. And thats the time na nabuo ung friendship namin(oo namin,kc apat kami sa friendship na un). At nasundan pa ung mga gimik namin, ang gastos nga eh, buti na lang hindi pa aq marunong magdota nun kundi hindi talaga aq sasama sa kanila. But i enjoyed their company, kc nakakarelieved naman talaga sa mga problem mo kapag gumigimik kang kasama ang mga tunay mong kaibigan. Until the time comes na nagsasabi na xa ng mga secrets nya and mga prob nya sa isang guy(sino ba ung guy na un?)... aun xa rin naman kc ung sinasabihan q kapag nasasaktan aq sa licheng love na yan(bitterness, harshhhh). And then one day nagising nalang aq na xa ung nasa isip q palagi, i’m not aware na nahuhulog na ung loob q sa kanya. And i hate that feeling cause magkaibigan kami. Isang araw ngdecide aq na ipagtapat sa kanya ung special feelings q about her by way of text(ang cheap no?).. Actually i went to mass before i sent that message to her... a minute later wala pa rin xang reply(naiintidihan q kc baka nashock xa) an hour later wala parin respond. Pero sa totoo anticipated q na talaga ung isasagot nya,kc i’m not the guy that she dreaming of. And after an hour and half, may message aqng nareceive sa cp q, akala q xa na un hindi pala quotes galing sa barkada q,tapus love quotes pa(arayyyy!!!). lalo aqng kinakabahan, mas malakas pa ung beat ng heart q kaysa nung nageexam aq(dougg-dougg-dougg –ang sabi ng heart q). After two hours aun ngreply na xa, sa totoo lang natatakot talaga aqng basahin ung reply nya , kc natatakot talaga aqng masaktan if she rejected me. And un na nga, xempre basted aq, mas mabuti daw kung magkaibigan lang kami. One word that comes my mouth is- “OK”(but deap inside is hurt a lot to me)..

The day after that day(ang gulo no,basta kinabukasan). I act as a normal, ung parang wala aqng sinasabi sa girl na un, but i act opposite what i’ve said. I decided na lumayo muna sa kanya. Pero ang hirap pala kc nga magkaibigan kmi at we are in the same school. And until i graduated in my college days(mamimis q talaga ung mga araw na pumipila aq sa mahabang pila,hehe). Then our friendship saves before it gone. Nagusap kami about sa amin dalawa, and i compromise about all the things that she told to me. Mas pinili qng maisalba ung pagkakaibigan namin kaysa sa nararamdaman q sa kanya.

A months later muli kaming nagkita, akala q talagang nakamove na aq sa kanya. But it’s not true kc muli na namang tumibok ang aking tahimik na puso. Mukhang naiinlove na naman aq sa kanya. Cguro namimissinterpret q lang act nya, kya akala q may pagasa pa aq sa kanya. Nakakamiss talaga ung mga ngiti, tawa, mata, at ung mga thoughts nya. Halos kc sa kanya perfect for me. Hindi na naman aq makatulog because of her.. lagi kc xang nasa isip q(sana aq rin nasa isip nya, ambisyo no?).. i made a mistake again, ayaw q ng maulit sakin yung nakaraan, nagcompromise ulit ako sa kanya. I inform her to say that my feeling about her is still around, and i want her to help me to forget about it. I ask for her advised to about it and she explained all to me about the thing that i must to do to get over her. At sinunod q naman ung napagusapan namin kahit na masakit. But when the time goes by lalo q talaga xang namimiss. Pero kailang kung tiisin para sa pagkakaibigan namin. Ang hirap talaga kapag one sided love no?... there’s nothing that can help me right now.. kya ngaun pinipilit q talaga kalimutan ang lahat. But i didn’t regret na nafall aq sa kanya. I treasured all the moments na nakasama ko sya. Ang sarap din ng filling na mainlove na todo kahit na masakit.. and I’m proud na naexperience ko yun even if it not comes in good ending.. Til now were good friends.. but my feeling to her well last until i die(prang kanta lang!!!)

And that’s the end of my post. Til next time..

See yah... Godbless...

-CHOY-